Its amazing to me the effect dreams can have on a person..me specifically they can ruin my day.. make my stomach turn all day.. break my heart and shed my tears.
The realization of the dream is hard to view when i'm blindfolded with so much hurt and confusion of the substance and the meaning of it all.
The dreams come and they go but they still leave imprints on my soul; break me down and make me frown i don't know how to relieve the sound the sound of the voices that sound so real and close.. the sound of the feelings that stab my heart and soul.
The past will always be there and will peek into your dreams when it will.. There may be a meaning but we may never know what it is .. or why its there.
The broken dreams of my past creeping into my present and defacing my future disturb me and make me wonder what was behind the peoples hearts and minds that hurt me and when they did .. what encouraged it? what made them do what they did.. what caused them to treat me that way.. what caused me to allow it? to stay within it when I knew otherwise i was much better off alone?
now I stand alone and independent and someone is trying to break in and i find it so hard to believe the purity of it due to all the past hurt and lies that formed my relation state of mind of being unable to trust.. to believe a promise.. to accept the pure love one wishes to give.. will they not do the same to me as those in the past?
My dreams confirm my suspicions then my heart tells it to stop ...A constant battle that runs non stop breaks my heart and tears my body parts apart.. Brings tears to my eyes and daggers to my heart
dreams may come .. dreams may go. but they will all leave an imprint on my heart and soul~
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