Its amazing to me the effect dreams can have on a person..me specifically they can ruin my day.. make my stomach turn all day.. break my heart and shed my tears.
The realization of the dream is hard to view when i'm blindfolded with so much hurt and confusion of the substance and the meaning of it all.
The dreams come and they go but they still leave imprints on my soul; break me down and make me frown i don't know how to relieve the sound the sound of the voices that sound so real and close.. the sound of the feelings that stab my heart and soul.
The past will always be there and will peek into your dreams when it will.. There may be a meaning but we may never know what it is .. or why its there.
The broken dreams of my past creeping into my present and defacing my future disturb me and make me wonder what was behind the peoples hearts and minds that hurt me and when they did .. what encouraged it? what made them do what they did.. what caused them to treat me that way.. what caused me to allow it? to stay within it when I knew otherwise i was much better off alone?
now I stand alone and independent and someone is trying to break in and i find it so hard to believe the purity of it due to all the past hurt and lies that formed my relation state of mind of being unable to trust.. to believe a promise.. to accept the pure love one wishes to give.. will they not do the same to me as those in the past?
My dreams confirm my suspicions then my heart tells it to stop ...A constant battle that runs non stop breaks my heart and tears my body parts apart.. Brings tears to my eyes and daggers to my heart
dreams may come .. dreams may go. but they will all leave an imprint on my heart and soul~
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Nature
So at peace sitting all alone in an oasis of beauty, flowers, trees, rocks and grass
all hold so much natural beauty they stand so pure with no judgement.
Although I can hear cars in the distance and people playing baseball far away its still so wonderful and such a serene place.
The sun beams burn my eyes the head from the rays warm my skin ..make me feel comfortable and safe So amazing I can walk to this daily and sit and be reassured that the world contains pureness and beauty.. not everything holds judgments and selfishness..So Gorgeous; outside thoughts dont matter ...Judgements the glares mean nothing to me while im here..that that exists is myself and this beautiful neature thats picture perfect.
Xo Tiff
all hold so much natural beauty they stand so pure with no judgement.
Although I can hear cars in the distance and people playing baseball far away its still so wonderful and such a serene place.
The sun beams burn my eyes the head from the rays warm my skin ..make me feel comfortable and safe So amazing I can walk to this daily and sit and be reassured that the world contains pureness and beauty.. not everything holds judgments and selfishness..So Gorgeous; outside thoughts dont matter ...Judgements the glares mean nothing to me while im here..that that exists is myself and this beautiful neature thats picture perfect.
Xo Tiff
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